Out of Commission

So . . . I'm going to be out of commission for a while.  Possibly 1-3 months.  And all because of an innocent accident.

I was sitting on the floor folding laundry on Saturday afternoon (9/29) when I decided to give my dog a hug who was laying in front of me.  I put my hands behind her front legs and started to pull her up.  Apparently she didn't want a hug at that time and flipped out and slammed her head directly on to my open left eye.  She didn't hit cheek or nose or eye brow.  Just a straight hit to my open eye.  It happened so fast I didn't have time to blink.

If you've been following my blog for some years now you know I don't have a good history with my eyes.  Especially my left one.  The one she hit.  And this time it's not any better.  It's worse.  Much worse.

She knocked my contact lens out and my artificial lens I had implanted when I had cataract surgery.  When I got to the hospital they said I had ruptured my eye.  They took me by ambulance to another hospital where they had people trained for this type of injury.  I was only at the other hospital a little less than an hour before they wheeled me in to surgery.

The doctor said that I had lost my pupil, the little pocket that holds the lens and obviously the lens itself.  I had also lost a bunch of other stuff in my eye which I don't remember what he called it.  My corneal transplant was barely hanging on by a little flap.  The surgery that I had that day was just to see if they could reconstruct it to be a eyeball again.  I'll have to have additional surgeries to see if/what help they can do to restore any vision in that eye.

After surgery the doctor said he would be happy if I saw light and shadow and movement.  I could.  It looks like very bad shadow puppets on a very dimly lit wall.  I couldn't see enough to tell how many fingers he was holding up and I couldn't see colors or shapes.  If everything heals and is okay in a month they'll refer me to a specialist to what they can do for vision.

I will have to have another transplant surgery.  Right now I think the only reason I still have an eye is that they could use the existing transplant to close up the eye.  The doctor said they didn't have any corneal tissue at the hospital so if they didn't have that to close up the now ruptured hole in my eye I don't know what they would have done. 

I don't know know what they are going to do about the lens you normally have in the eye.  Not only did I lose the lens, I lost the pocket that the lens sits in.  They're going to have to MacGyver something in order to get that to work.

Needless to say I have a long road of surgeries and recoveries ahead of me.  This all happened about a week and a half ago so I've had time to calm down, accept my fate and get past the worst of the pain for now.  It hasn't been easy.  Even typing this is hard and I'm going to have to rest for a long time afterwords to recover. 

As for playing video games that's out of the question for now.  I do have videos in the can that I could edit and post to my YouTube channel but it hurts to much to look at the screen and those will only last so long and I'm not recording any more.  So for the time being I'm taking it easy and contemplating a lot of my life.  That's about all I can do at this point.  If things change, I'll make another post.  Right now my bad eye is watering like crazy and it's making it harder for my good eye to focus. 

So, I guess I'm out of commission for while.  This is the life for the next several months for this gamer girl.  Play on!